In life, why do we have to face decisions that we had to chose?

ailsya avriel
3 min readJul 8, 2024

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We Made a Beautiful Bouquet (2021)

If life is full of uncertainty, perhaps it also full of decisions that we had to choose. In every step kind of ages, we must’ve been facing the moments when we had to choose. When we wanted to eat something, we have to choose what food that we want to eat. When we wanted to do something, we have to choose what activitity that shall we do first. When we wanted to watch a movie, we choose what movie that we want to watch. Almost every day, we choose something so that we know what would happend after we chose those decisions we make.

Somehow in this reality, theres also decisions that we can’t run from it. Decision that you might thought its the best way for you yet at the same time it can destroy you forever. It is very hard when we have to face decisions that truly hard not only for other people, but also yourself. The most heartbreaking thing is when we actually don’t wanna choose any decisions, but we end up have to choose one of them.

Choosing the best decision toward something that hard for you to let go is firm. When people might judge us by no reasons towards our decision, but they don’t really know anything about you. Other people didn’t know how it feels to face between two decisions that hard to choose at the same time. To know that they might didn’t experience the whole same thing like us, it should’ve not their responsible to give any comments toward our decision when actually we have reasons behind the decision itself. When actually we took many times to figure out of it. When actually we need more than a month to accept, to face the whole of true acceptance.

Otherwise, we would try to blame ourselves for choosing that final decision, when its not fully our own fault, or maybe it isn’t our fault. Read this and say this to yourself; Everything happens for a reason. And let each words of it remains in your heart and mind, that everything always happens for a reason, even though you didn’t recognize it at first, surely there’ll be. God knows which decision that better for us in the next step, he lead us the way to head into there. To the place when we can feel sense of happiness than we ever expected. To the place where we will surely know that choosing the hardest decisions for us might not forever that harsh. Sometimes choosing the hardest can be better for us in the next stage of life that we never know when.

To my dearest readers, I wanna say and remind you that its genuinely okay to take hundred even million times to choose which decision that you want to take for your next step, but don’t take it too long. Just listen to the wish that your heart makes, then follow it. When you tend to miserable to accept it at first, just slowly give a try for opening your arms to let any kind of feelings inside you to found you. When those feelings and emotions finally found you, learn how to embrace it. They won’t last forever.

Choosing the best decision toward something never that easy.. Especially when we also had to let it go. If there’s somebody try to give any judgments toward that, then its not our job for listening to their words, its not our responsible for take care of what they said to us. Because they aren’t you. They don’t have the same exact feeling or experience like you. They have no idea how does it feels to face the decisions that hard to choose, to chose the best decision, when turns out it can also be the one that destroy you the most.

Others won’t understand what it feels to choose decision that hard even for our own selves.

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ailsya avriel
ailsya avriel

Written by ailsya avriel

sometimes i write for people, sometimes i write for myself. reach me on ig @ailsyaavriel ^^

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