living the life as someone who’s stuck in a pipe dream
Perhaps, all this time I was let myself drowning in my own pipe dream.
Everyone has their own dreams to achieve. They don’t have idea how farthest road it is to achieve it, they’re just try. They might already familiar with the art of trying and failing. But, perhaps some of them didn’t realize that they were just spend a life just to lived in a pipe dream. When they’re keep trying, trying, and trying, yet they ended up being hopeless for any possibilities. However, you notice that there’s no possibility exist, but you’re being too desperate for that thing.
Its funny how you still searching for any unseen possibilities that can make you a little bit grateful just to living that ‘dream’ for a while. When you keep finding any chances that exist and take all of it yet the universe still giving you no answer. That maybe the ‘dream’ that you ‘dreamed’ was just a pipe dream that has no possible to be true or become a reality.
You never know when it will happens, but you keep striving and trying until you feel like you wanted to die cause you have no idea when the right timing is.
When we see some people seems that easily to pursue their dreams, meanwhile us living in the moment as someone who’s hopeless to achieve our own dreams. We’re being desperate for that, but too foolish to realize that what we think it’d be come true yet its just part of our illusion.
It happened to me when I used to think that I strive so hard for my dream major and thinking it’d be come true as what I expected it would be. But, turns out when I passed all the obstacles and failures that I never thought it was all of the signs that I had enough to try many times for it. That what I deserves was only my own ‘pipe dream’ over my dream major.
I realize that perhaps all this time I was all having my own illusionary dream over my dream major that I thought it was something that I was able to pursue. It was really an amazing journey to experience that thing and took it as my biggest ‘life changing’. It was such a great turning-point of my whole life.
And I did sometimes grieving back over those things. Because I have nothing to prove that I was capable to achieved my biggest dream. It is sometimes painful to rewind and recalling over those experiences, thus without those happenings, maybe I wasn’t able to thank myself over that thing. That I had did well enough and maybe it was not something that I’d be better to pursue.
There’s a moment when you grieving over things that didn’t happen or didn’t you get. Then, you keep imagining what would happen if you actually get that thing and you start wondering what would happen towards your whole life, how ‘life-changing’ it is. However, you’re just end up seeing yourself smile with a grief left behind knowing that you had to given up over that thing.
I am so thankful for what already happened, let just happened. There’s no life without passing through some obstacles in it. There’s no life experience without a life lesson in it. Everything happen for a reason. All you have to do is just keep try, pray, and optimistic. Perhaps, when it comes to grieving over your things that didn’t come true or didn’t you get, you’ll learn something from it and that’s part of your growth.
Growth is indeed part of beauty. It isn’t something that you’ll see at the right moment when you expect it to come, yet the beauty will come at its right moment of your life.
Grief is never considering whether its something that you already got and turns out disappoints you, it can be something that you’d probably won’t get and deserved. When it comes to grief and grieving, then you’ll realize how deep is your love toward something or someone.
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